I wish i can read your mind. I wish i can read your heart. I wish...
I miss the old you.
How can you be so different from the one i've known for the past year in just a month?
It's like i try so hard to holding on for a strangers.
You've changed. Or it's just me the one who actually didn't know your real self? Am i blinded by my own desire? My own feelings? I wish your feelings are exactly what i thought it would be.
I miss the old you.
With a simple black Huff snapback and futsal jersey with an apron.
I miss the old you.
Just a simple you. Someone who'll crack a same joke just to make me smile or laugh.
I miss the old you.
Those eyes which is filled with a thousand of hope for everytime you looked at me.
I miss the old you.
Those honest smile who always greet me everytime i looked at you eventhough i just replies with a small smile because i was too nervous for everytime i saw your smile. It's too dazzling in my eyes.
I miss the old you.
Who always getting excited when i look straight into your eyes and how clumsy you can be just because of that. I'm getting butterflies when i see your reactions because of me.
I'm bad at giving response. So i don't know what should i do.
I've been too careless when i decide to fall for you.
I didn't know liking you will risk so much in my emotion.
Affecting my mind and my life.
I didn't know liking you will changed me this much.
I didn't realize for a year i've been keeping this feeling towards you, accidently i've become a better person. I didn't realize you've changed me so much.
I wish i can say thank you in person. I wish i had that much confident to speaks to you.
Today, we met each other for the first time after a month you've left.
I'm speechless. I don't know how long have you notice my presence at the stairs because i didn't saw you sitting there.
But i was so dissapointed when i realizes you didn't looked at me.
I was so hurt.
I've been missing you everyday but our encounter was too short and not beautiful at all.
I'll keep you in my doa. If He wills it, we'll be together. Sooner or later. But if He didn't wills it, there must be a another person waiting for me.
Be happy. SMH!
